Natalie's Nook

Someone read me. They said it seemed as though I was “emotionally unavailable” and immediately I thought of you. I thought of how much time I spent cradling you when you were broken. Hoping I would show empathy as you placed before me your heart soaking in blood. Your battered body collapsing into my arms. Holding you close as you squeezed out every ounce of sympathy I had in me. When you felt like the world was against you, I assured you I cared. When you felt alone, I assured that despite our past— I still loved you.

 You took that for granted. You took me for granted.

You let go of the little bit of us we had left, and I happily followed suit. And now you’ve lost me for good. This is me letting you know I am completely through. I refuse to not let a new love in because of you.

I am no longer someone you can acquire. How ironic: me being something that held you back, you now longingly require.

What a contradictory desire.  

    ~feels

|n.m.d